Finally. A bit spare I think, but... Anyway, I don't like hiding things behind a pay wall, so anything I post on there will be posted there or at my tumblr (or... elsewhere). However, all Patrons will be able to participate in a monthly pin-up poll, which will be fully inked and colored; and $15+ will get a pencil drawing of a character (or other) of their choice every month.
Be forewarned, it is listed as NSFW, because I do draw a lot of it -as you lot know- and feel it would be dishonest not to let anybody else who stumbles upon it know.
Clarification of points from the last journal
So, I think that I did a bad job of explaining myself last week so here's some further thoughts.Feeling like shit
This is, in large part, due to my scatterbrained-ness. If you've been following me for a while, you know I have some projects that I've been planning for years (KIM POSSIBLE STUFFZ) and have been unable to get them out. I hope to be able to focus on them, but I fear my brain won't let me. I am slowly working on something else, but if I put it up here, it will be, umm, heavily redacted, shall we say. I assume you can figure out why
Also, my job has been giving me stress. And it's mostly because it seems like I'm the only one -in my department, at least, including my department manager- who seems to follow the damned guidelines. I don't know if it's just that I'm too rigid, or what but I keep pointing out problems and they keep being dealt with in exactly the opposite way than the one that fixes it. And my shift managers keep telling me to keep doing what I'm doing and that i'm mosttly doing a fine job and they're communicating my issues to day shift, but it all feels hollow. Next month, I will have working there for three years, and that makes me anxious because that's around the time I got fired from my previous job.
Tumblr, what shall I say about thee?
You have been a great source of random fan art, news, and inspiration.
Also, of making me feel like dirt.
Because I'm who I am, which is a straight white American male, and a lot of people are determined that that I represent a BAD THING. And it's not any direct things, just seepage from the blogs I follow.
I've got a lot of information about things that I almost certainly wouldn't have elseways, but also just a lot of... baggage.
Why can't everyone just follow Wheaton's Law?
It has become apparent to me that while I had previously been unconcerned about it, I'm really not. 29 is fast approaching, and I really don't feel like I've even TRIED to make something of my life. I still live with my mother. Granted, this is mainly for financial reasons, but...
And I don't have -nor have I ever- a 'love life". I'm kind of a recluse, I don't like the idea of just going out to the bar and trying to pick somebody up, it just seems weird. And also it's a whole sexist, power/manipulation thing IDK. I always figured it'd just happen organically, but you have to actually INTERACT with people first... I just... There's all this effort involved, and I feel like I would be a terrible (BF? SI? lover?) just because... I dunno.
GamerGate, etc. I think I'll address in a later journal.